how do you live so happily while i am sad and broken down?

I am declaring tomorrow Anti-Procrastination Day!  I'm going to do some of the things I've been putting off:

a) Put my new license plate on.
b) Sweep up all the damn cat hair and mop.
c) Put away all the random crap I've left in the living room.
d) Backup personal computer and clean it so I can take it to Best Buy and get the screen fixed without them making judge-y remarks about it being dirty like they did last time.
d) Go buy laundry detergent so I can do laundry.
e) Start laundry.

That last one might not happen, as tomorrow night is my birthday karaoke party!  So excite!

This week has been sort of a non-entity for me.  My BFF called last night, and when I went to tell her what I'd been up to since we talked last week, it was basically, "Er. I played tennis one night."  That's okay though - it's been a hectic summer and I needed to veg a bit.  Plus between this weekend and Dragon*Con coming up weekend after next, it'll be good to have some rest.

And if I'm going to get anything done tomorrow, I suppose I should go to bed soon.


*Lest you think this is apropos of something, it's not.  I'm just going back to my 'song lyrics that's on the radio as journal title' phase.

 Wow, my motivation to do anything work related tonight is low to non-existent.  Which really doesn't bode well for tomorrow, but oh well.  

Things that are good today:

• Despite not really wanting to be here, I had a good day.  My clients are nice, and the director complimented my training skills after class.
• I watched that new Aaron Sorkin thing, Newsroom.  It's not perfect, but damn that man writes a good rant.  Like on West Wing, he writesthings that make me want to fight for a better world.  Also, hi Jesse Eisenberg, I heard what you did there.
• I'm tired and I can't think of a third thing.  Oh - Harry Styles changing his twitter pic to him in front of Atlanta's giant aquarium.  I appreciatetheir appreciation of my city.
• I finally got to use a photocopier to blow up the pattern I need to make a gift for my sister-in-law's baby shower.  Unfortunately it's next week and I likely won't get it finished, but hey.  Progress.

Things that are not good today:

• I shouldn't ought to have had that giant iced mocha at 9:30 last night.  Five hours of sleep is not enough.
• Concentration, smoncentration.
• Worried about my brother, who gets out of hospital tonight.
• Colorado is on fire.

That's all I got.

Tomorrow's Agenda:

930: Stumble downstairs for breakfast
10: Walk on treadmill
11-1: Clean up self, house
1-hopefully 7: Work
7-9: Tennis
9: Pick up food

We'll see, anyway. I may be being optimistic about getting done with work in time to get to tennis.

This weekend was kind of blah. I went to tennis on Friday night despite having a headache; playing didn't make it worse, but it also didn't make it better. I went home instead of going out like I normally do, and then I slept most of the day away on Saturday. Like, I slept til noon, then took a nap at two. I was finally getting around to doing a couple of things when Scott called and invited me down to dinner and a movie.

While I was there, he mentioned that he might have a lead on a renter for me if I wanted it. I said no, but now I'm re-thinking it. He said she's looking for something short-term. It would mean moving my drumkit to the basement, and moving the guestroom stuff into the packing room, and my guest bathroom would be for the renter. I've emailed him to say that I might be interested after all. I think it would depend on meeting her, her not being allergic to cats, and being willing to stay at least 6 months. The extra cash would be nice, though.

Then today, I slept more, then went grocery shopping. I start back on my meal plan on Tuesday, and I am looking forward to it! I need to detox after a month of travelling. I don't want to step back on the scale though, ugh. I think I'll leave that til next week. After that, I came home and cleaned up the kitchen & the living room a bit (possibly due to thinking about having a roommate and me being a slob) while ruminating on how unfair it is that things get dirty when you're barely there to use them. I spent the rest of the evening working on my photo album for 2006 - I did all of May's trip to Paris, and laid out June. *sigh* I miss international travelling. Just the fun touristy parts, not the actual work. I keep reminding myself of that.

Oh, and I didn't win the lottery last week. I have three more chances on the ticket I bought, where I am betting that I will continue not to win the lottery. Which really is too bad as my plan for my winnings gets more detailed every day.

Thing #1:
Four years ago, I bought a house. Some days I'm happier about that than others, but my mother said something to me at Thanksgiving that touched me. She said, "You've really made a home here." And I have, in a lot of ways. I just can't believe it's been four years already.

Thing #2:
Weight loss! I am down 7 pounds since January 1! I am posting about this on my weight-loss journal if you'd like to follow along. It is here. Mostly I am just trying to eat right and exercise more. Such an ingenious approach, I know! I have started going to hot yoga classes, which has been fun. Last night I hurt my bicep trying to do something that I'm sure has a fancy name, but in my mind is called "Flailing Turtle" as that is what I looked like trying to do it.

Thing #3:
In fannish news, I have fallen head-first into Star Trek reboot fanfic. There is soooo much of it, and it's all science-y with added telepathy and I am hooked. I have started watching the original series on CBS.com, and OMG. OMG. OMG. They are so unintentionally hilarious! The outfits with obvious sparkly rick-rack trim! The episode called Spock's Brain, where hottie aliens steal Spock's Brain! Featuring robot Leonard Nimoy. It is awesome times. Also, there was just a character on the episode of Castle that I just watched whose first name was Vulcan. Is that an acceptable first name now?

Thing #4:
Which has led to my next "thing," which is that now I have a giant crush on Zachary Quinto, who played Spock. So now I'm watching Heroes just to see him with non-Vulcan eyebrows. It's not bad, but if you aren't into comics, I can see why it wouldn't work for you. After that, I'm probably going to watch the season of '24' he's in. '24', people! I hate that show, and yet I will watch it. My love, it is pure. :)

And that's what's new with me!

You know what will mess with you?

Writing fluffy Adam Lambert AI8 fic while in the background watching an episode of Criminal Minds where the serial killer is named Adam.

Today was not a good day. I don't even want to go into why - it's mostly a general mood thing, with some extra family stuff on top. I keep watching movies tonight that make me cry, and I think it's more me than the movies. I wish... I wish I was happier right now.

Ah, well:

Just as a reminder, I'm still (sporadically) posting to my weight-loss journal. Here's a link to today's post about my June goals and reward eating.

All week long my thoughts have gone like this, "Should post something to LJ so people know I'm still alive. Eh, too tired, fuck it."

Tonight? Eh, too tired, fuck it.

Day 25: Your day, in great detail

I woke up with the cat on top of me, as per usual. Then I hit snooze three times. Then I reset my alarm to get up an hour later, but only made it half an hour before the guilt (and the sound of my cell phone ringing) got me up. I had my usual breakfast of oatmeal and chocolate milk while watching an episode of Supernatural on TNT (Heart, one of my favorites).

Then I made my way down to my office to start up my laptop and do my one assigned task of the day, an interface preparation call for a client that I'd prepped last week but then figured out we hadn't done everything needed. Afterward, I chatted with my team lead on IM, then my cat decided to chat with him, then I yelled at her to get off my keyboard.

I came back upstairs and had lunch, two mango & black bean quesadillas, yummy! I watched a little bit of the Olympics - women's curling, Switzerland vs China I think. Back to work, I started watching our support queue to help them out, and grabbed a couple of cases. One I emailed the instructions to, the other I called and left a message. He never called back. Odds he will call on Monday when I'm actually busy, 100%. Gave up on pretending to work around 4pm.

Went into my craft room and worked on my photo album from my month in Toulouse. I have it all lined out, but wasn't happy with the paper I'm using. It's lovely, almost too pretty to use! But there are too many patterns too close together. I tried to find some neutral papers in my overly large paper selection, but everything was either too busy or the wrong shade. :(

Began the Friday night texting marathon of 'what are you/we doing' between K and my tennis friends. Discovered that my tennis partner for tomorrow had called to cancel; arranged another match in its place. Took shower (you thought I'd left that out? No, I'm just a lazy slob.) Then I put on my tennis clothes, checked my work email one more time before shutting the computer down for the weekend, gave the cat a treat, and then headed into town to go to tennis drills.

Chatted with my tennis coach for twenty minutes before he decided that really, no one else was coming to drills and so they were cancelled. Texted my friend who was planning to come, and we made plans to meet later for dinner instead. Headed back to the house, changed clothes, took another look at the photo album. Realized I had time, so I headed to Michaels Craft store. Picked out a nice neutral beige that will be an offset to the pattern frenzy, 25 sheets for $6. Lusted over a beautiful set of textured neutral paper, but since it was $20 I decided not to. My hobby, it is expensive. Also, on the way to the checkout, saw a two pack of Reeses Easter eggs. Cannot resist! They are the perfect ratio of peanut butter to chocolate!

Drove back into town, headed for Wahoo Grill. Ate 1 of the Easter eggs on the way. Arrived to discover that there was no parking and an hour wait. We went to Figo instead, an Atlanta chain of Italian restaurants. Had bruschetta, a spinach salad, and a really lovely ravioli with marscapone (sp) and Vidalia onions. And a glass of Sauvignon Blanc, yay!

Came home, toyed briefly with the idea of working more on the photo album but abandoned it after clearing off my work area. Fed the cat, scooped the litter box. Poured myself a glass of milk and set down to watch the Olympics and eat the second Reeses Egg. Started sorting songs on my ipod into playlists. Watched Apollo Ohno get disqualified and be kind of pissy about it.

And now, I'm thinking bed time.

( Future Days )

Today was just sort of a blah day all around. It was rainy and gray... except for ten minutes around 3pm when the sun almost came out. I worked, and watched all the Top Chef episodes even though I'd seen most of them. I got a blizzard from Dairy Queen. The cat knocked over my flowers and spilled water everywhere, but thankfully didn't get hurt or break the vase.

That's all I got today.