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Quarantine Life: Groceries and guilt
May. 4th, 2020 09:01 pmI read today that journaling is a good way to deal with stress from all of this so I’m going to try to update more often. I am trying to update from my iPad because the laptop makes me feel like I’m still working.
We are almost two months into lockdown. Well, partial lockdown. Our governor has decided to allow some businesses to reopen. He has of course picked the dumbest path: hair and nail salons, tattoo artists, massage therapists, and bowling alleys. All businesses where social distancing is impossible. I get so angry when I think about it, all the people that could get ill and die because they have no choice but to return to work. The prevailing theory is that he’s done this to keep these workers and businesses from qualifying for government assistance. It’s not right. Many businesses in my part of town are choosing not to open yet, thankfully.
But when I get upset, part of me has to acknowledge that I too have put, and continue to put, other people in harm’s way. I haven’t gone to the grocery store since March 24. I have had an Instacart subscription since last spring, and I just switched over to Shipt. I use Doordash and Grubhub to order delivery at least once a week. I continue to order prepared meals from a local meal service company, which delivers once a week.
That’s at least three people a week that are exposing themselves in a way that my income shields me from. R appeases me by saying that we are minimizing the exposure pool, while supporting the local economy, and keeping people who need the money working. And we are both potentially in a higher (although not high) risk category. But I still feel guilty.
We are almost two months into lockdown. Well, partial lockdown. Our governor has decided to allow some businesses to reopen. He has of course picked the dumbest path: hair and nail salons, tattoo artists, massage therapists, and bowling alleys. All businesses where social distancing is impossible. I get so angry when I think about it, all the people that could get ill and die because they have no choice but to return to work. The prevailing theory is that he’s done this to keep these workers and businesses from qualifying for government assistance. It’s not right. Many businesses in my part of town are choosing not to open yet, thankfully.
But when I get upset, part of me has to acknowledge that I too have put, and continue to put, other people in harm’s way. I haven’t gone to the grocery store since March 24. I have had an Instacart subscription since last spring, and I just switched over to Shipt. I use Doordash and Grubhub to order delivery at least once a week. I continue to order prepared meals from a local meal service company, which delivers once a week.
That’s at least three people a week that are exposing themselves in a way that my income shields me from. R appeases me by saying that we are minimizing the exposure pool, while supporting the local economy, and keeping people who need the money working. And we are both potentially in a higher (although not high) risk category. But I still feel guilty.
