Stream of Consciousness Posting

I cannot believe I'm awake at this hour. I can't believe I'm on hold at this hour. Now you're looking at the timestamp and thinking 5:30 am... she's never been up at 5:30 before? Ah, but I'm on the West Coast in actuality and it's 2:30am and I've just gotten up to call Delta to change my flight because if I do it now it's free, but if I did it yesterday it was $100+ fare change. And I've already packed my glasses. so I'm sitting here typing, squinting at the text and wondering how many typos I've made. Trying to remember if I've packed everything. Wondering how tired I will be when I finally get to Tulsa. Or how long thd drive to Missouri will be. All this to get to spend a little more time with my family, which I worry sometimes is growing farther and farther apart. When I was a kid, my extended family got together four times a year: Easter, Fourth of July, Thanksgiving and Christmas. Now every year, it's harder and harder to get us all into one spot at one time. I've moved away, my brother moved away, my cousin moved away, my sister-in-law took the kids to see her family, the cousins have seventeen school activities that they can't miss so "we can't come down til Christmas Eve and wee have to leave the day after." The holidays of my youth seem to be gone, and it makes me sad because I enjoy my family: they're smart, they're funny, and I never feel like I have to explain myself when I'm around them - they get me, ya know? So here I am on the phone, Some things are worth losing sleep for.